June 2011
Mask
And sometimes when theres smiles all around,
It makes it even easier to frown.
So ill put on this mask,
And make happiness my next unattainable task.
Stupid.
I should have known not to get my hopes up. I want to go back into my cave alone, forever.
You.
No pressure, no worries, no reading between the lines, no anxious gestures, no wanting to pull my hair out because of the underlying tension. Just the best conversation and company Ive had in so long. The first guy who actually enjoys me as a friend. I was right about you, I knew it. And its the best feeling in the world.
Its sad that,
my past has made me terrified to enjoy anyones company too much. Im never sure if they will feel the same way, or if they’ll even stay.
Ive learned that..
Sometimes, the one that you cant have, doesn’t deserve to have you. No matter how much that hurts.
